This is a bit of a vent journal. I really want to put my thoughts down somewhere, and give a reason in advance for only posting sketches anymore. This journal may sound weird coming from me, because I know some of you really like my artwork.
TL;DR: I'm very frustrated with my ability to draw poses and anatomy, so I'm going to invest the time I'd normally spend coloring into making other drawings and practicing.
If you read the descriptions when I post art, it's not a secret that I feel I struggle a lot when it comes to drawing good poses and anatomy. Granted, they could be a lot worse, but it's still something I've been having a lot of trouble with. The most common critiques I get regarding my art have to do with the drawing itself, such as the pose or proportions. This is especially the case with action poses, or with characters that have proportions I'm not familiar with (eg. short legs, overweight, stylized, and so on). I don't mind critiques whatsoever, they're helpful! It's just something I've noticed.
Things really came to a head yesterday regarding my struggles.
Yesterday I'd say I spent about 9+ hours working on coloring a piece of fanart that I was excited about doing all week. Right when I was adding the finishing details and color tweaks, I suddenly realized that the character's arm, based on how it was positioned would essentially be broken or dislocated, and the forearm looked twice as long as the upper arm. I somehow went the whole time, from when I started the piece earlier in the week, to finishing, without ever noticing.
At this stage it'd be extremely hard to fix without starting over. It would involve redrawing both arms and the weapon they are holding, erasing all the layers of colors, shading, and tweaks on top of them, then hoping the coloring will match cohesively with the rest of the drawing once it's repaired. I'm not even sure if I'd be able to redraw the arms better the next time around due to my skill level, so potentially it wouldn't matter either.
If it were a regular art piece, just for me, I may have posted it anyway and shrugged it off. I'd just bring it up as a self-critique in the description... but since it's fanart for someone I really respect and admire, I don't think I'll ever want to share it knowing they'd instantly see the huge, weird flaw in the art that I neglected to see the entire time. It's almost embarrassing to me, in a way.
So yeah... I'm really lost for patience with myself. Part of my art block has been related to all of this. I'm really tired of struggling, and, by my own decision, I've lost a cool piece of art to it. I'll have to remake it in the future once I'm better.
I just wanted to say that, for the foreseeable future, I won't be doing colored artwork anymore. I'm going to invest the time I'd normally spend coloring into drawing, practicing and studying instead. I want to be able to draw awesome poses, great hands, correct muscles, believable action, proper perspective, and more. I really want to pick up my drawing ability so I can draw as well as the artists I look up to.
I may still do quick shading here and there since that doesn't take me very long, but yeah, no coloring until I make progress on these issues.
Thanks for listening~